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Thank You Jesus i think i've successfully reverted back to 'he's my best friend i dont like him' attitude la. know that a lot of people wont believe me. quite lame but it's true. Thank God for everyone who's been covering me in prayer. so impt that you pple prayed for me la cos i believe this was also a test for me. temptation. the thin line between liking someone n treating that person as only a friend when you are that close. but i've come out of it. people wouldnt be able to believe it la. but i've learnt to take things in my stride. yup. it really is a huge relief. hmm. i believe this is something difficult to do. i'm sure i still have a lil feelings. but then again. all these will change soon. this only made me realise even more that i've been straying from God and that more than ever, i really need God's love, and that i need to realise it's just a few words away from me. all i need to say is "God, i need You". hmm. i didnt see that. amidst all the preparation for concert, amidst the busy schedule i have, i began to lose sight of God, i began looking for worldly love and acceptance. like Hey? i didnt come to ngee Ann poly for this purpose. i know God has a specific purpose for me. God has this plan. i'm beginning to see it unfold. a reason why i didnt go to SAJC. cos if i had gone there, i wouldnt have suffered the setbacks i'd suffered here to make me a stronger person. i wouldnt be who i am now, i wouldnt be mature if not for God who stood by me all this while. and i appreciate it. thank You, Daddy~ i feel i know what's a major reason why i am in band, my passion for music leads to what other reason, Leen think u know best haha. Thank God for Leen n Evon who've been standing by me and reminding me of God's plan, God's purpose in my life. SOL made a huge difference too. i wanna make a big impact on lives. i wanna help the lost girls. i wanna help those who've gone thru a lot of emotional trauma. i may not have been thru worse than them. but i know my mother has. i have her testimony, i have mine, and i have a heart to put myself in pple's shoes. i feel the pain pple are feeling. even my best friend for many years, felicia, doesnt believe me. but trust me. i know this is a gift from God to be used wisely. not to hurt people. but to help pple. in any way i can. i'm not a saviour. but i know i wanna help people. and All glory goes to Daddy. He's the one who made me, made us. hehes. Thank You Daddy~ |
